I wanted to share the conversation I had with God before we started homeschooling. It came to me a few times so maybe it’s the Lord’s way of asking me to share, so here we go…
Dear Jesus,
I wanted to discuss this whole homeschooling thing you have called us to. I have a few concerns and would just like to hear from you, you know some kind of confirmation that we should homeschool, that we’re on the right track, because I’m freaking out just a bit. So here’s where I’m at with this whole thing…
1. I’m scared.
The LORD himself goes before you and will be with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged. (Deut 31;8)
And surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age. (Matt 28:20)
2. I’m worried about what other people will think or say.
Fear of man will prove to be a snare, but whoever trusts in the LORD is kept safe. (Prov 29:25)
The fear of the LORD is the beginning of wisdom, and knowledge of the Holy One is understanding. (Prov 9:10)
Set your mind on things above, not on things on the earth. (Colossians 3:2)
3. I doubt my own ability to teach my kids effectively.
…for it is God who works in you to will and to act in order to fulfill his good purpose. (Philippians 2:13)
I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. (Philippians 4:13)
4. I don’t think we can afford it.
And God is able to bless you abundantly, so that in all things at all times, having all that you need, you will abound in every good work. (2 Corinthians 9:8)
5. How can I take care of my home, family, and daily responsibilities and homeschool?
If anyone serves, they should do so with the strength God provides, so that in all things God may be praised through Jesus Christ. To him be the glory and the power for ever and ever. Amen. (1 Peter 4:11)
And whatever you do in word or deed, do all in the name of the Lord Jesus, giving thanks to God the Father through Him. (Colossians 3:17)
6. I’m so overwhelmed, I don’t even know where to start!
Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding (Proverbs 3:5)
If any of you lacks wisdom, you should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to you. (James 1:5)
Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God (Philippians 4:6)
6. What about my free time?
Do nothing out of selfish ambition or vain conceit. Rather, in humility value others above yourselves, not looking to your own interests but each of you to the interests of the others. (Philippians 2:3)
Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. (Matthew 11:28)
7. What if my kids turn out weird and un-socialized?
And do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind, that you may prove what is that good and acceptable and perfect will of God. (Romans 12:2)
8. What if I lose friends or family because they disapprove?
But whatever were gains to me I now consider loss for the sake of Christ. What is more, I consider everything a loss because of the surpassing worth of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord, for whose sake I have lost all things. (Philippians 3:1-8)
9. What about my attitude and, um shall we say lack of patience?
Do everything without grumbling or arguing, so that you may become blameless and pure, “children of God without fault in a warped and crooked generation”. Then you will shine among them like stars in the sky as you hold firmly to the word of life. And then I will be able to boast on the day of Christ that I did not run or labor in vain. But even if I am being poured out like a drink offering on the sacrifice and service coming from your faith, I am glad and rejoice with all of you. So you too should be glad and rejoice with me. (Philippians 2:14-18)
Therefore, as God’s chosen people, holy and dearly loved, clothe yourselves with compassion, kindness, humility, gentleness and patience. (Colossians 3:12)
…for the wrath of man does not produce the righteousness of God. (James 1:20)
10. Um, so are you saying I’m going to be tested? Because we all know how that turns out…
My brethren, count it all joy when you fall into various trials, knowing that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. (James 1:2-3)
And not only that, but we also glory in tribulations, knowing that tribulation produces perseverance; and perseverance, character; and character, hope. Now hope does not disappoint, because the love of God has been poured out in our hearts by the Holy Spirit who was given to us. (Romans 1:3-5)
10. What if I can’t hack it? I mean it’s always easier said then done!
…And let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us, fixing our eyes on Jesus, the pioneer and perfecter of faith. For the joy set before him he endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God. Consider him who endured such opposition from sinners, so that you will not grow weary and lose heart. (Hebrews 12: 1-3)
11. How am I to teach, I don’t even have a teaching degree?
These commandments that I give you today are to be on your hearts. Impress them on your children. Talk about them when you sit at home and when you walk along the road, when you lie down and when you get up. Tie them as symbols on your hands and bind them on your foreheads. Write them on the doorframes of your houses and on your gates. (Deut 6-9)
12. Okay, I’m out of excuses, any final advice?
But He said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. (2 Corinthians 12:9)
He will feed his flock like a shepherd. He will carry the lambs in His arms, holding them close to His heart. He will gently lead the mother sheep with their young. (Isaiah 40:11 NLT)
and thus began our journey…
There are no words that would express what this blog just meant to me. I am trying to decide if homeschooling is the route we should take. We have seven children, 10yrs and under, and I have all of these fears. Thank you for for reminding me of these Truths. Wow, I am going to print this and keep reading it over and over!
wow…beautiful
Just yesterday I told my hubby i couldn't do this (homeschool) anymore. Thank you so much for sharing this. You are a real blessing to me.
Thanks for posting this. We are going to start homeschooling this fall with our 4 year old, and this is exactly how I am feeling! So thank you for posting! 🙂
Wow! Tomorrow is my daughter's last day in public school. We prayed about this…. and I asked God for signs and reassurance. As I was reading this, I was thinking…. hmmm, did I write this? It is like she read my mind and blogged about it! I was almost in tears because I had those same questions and the answers are beautiful! Then, to top it off, I got to the end…… thank you, my name is Erica, too. Thank you for sharing. What a peaceful way to end my day and start homeschooling! You are truly a blessing.
Love how you answer questions with scripture. Great post. Blessings, Debbie
I too am printing this out:-) I just had a baby six mo and this has also been my first yr homeschooling. I have been feeling so frustrated and tired.
Wow, I had the exact same conversation with God in Jan of 2009 when I felt God prompting me to homeschool. My oldest son was in kindergarten and loving school. My younger 3 were ages 4, 2, and 8 months. I didn’t know how I was going to do it, but my husband & I knew it was what God wanted for our family. I am so glad you opened your heart and shared this conversation! I love how you back every thought with God’s promises. I am going to print it and hang it where I can read it daily. I am so thankful for your blog. I feel like I have a good homeschool support system but reading your blog is like talking to a great friend who just ‘gets it’. I am really looking forward to having your blog to refer to as we start our 2nd year of homeschooling! Thank you so much for using your gifts & sharing them with us! You are a huge blessing to many, many moms!
I have spent the last few months looking at blogs and websites about homeschoolers. I have been a follower of yours for a short time but had not read this till tonight. This was a rough day (1st year – officially Day 16). This was convicting and encouraging. I am allowing impatience and frustration to take hold. Please continue in what you do. It does encourage and help others.
I have tears in my eyes right now…I have so fought God on this issue for all of these reasons. It is more comforting than you know to read that your concerns are EXACTLY what goes through my mind everyday. My son started kindergarten this year at a small church kindergarten. It seems like none of my options are right for him, but homeschooling does seem like the best. Oh, what to do now?